The last
thing I want to do is blurt out personal feelings on the blog, but somehow I
find myself opening up the Microsoft word and typing down these words….
Come 2016, I
thought everything would fall into place and that it would be better than 2015!
But I was wrong.
January was such a terrible month. I had to
keep going to hospital for one reason or another. Started with a minor flu for
a week, then ended up having a minor surgery to remove a cyst behind my right
ear which needed stitches, then an emergency doctor tells me that the severe
pain on my foot must be because of gout! Seriously! As if I don’t have enough
health issues already!!!!!
And then! I
FAINT!
Since I got
sick, I might have fainted about five times now, and every time I faint, in
that 10 to 20 seconds of the blackout moment, I can see my whole world.
The most
recent one scared me so much. Some think I should get used to by now, but do
tell, DOES ANY ONE GET USED TO SOMETHING LIKE THIS?
I don’t
really know how to explain the pain, I could feel every single nerve in my body
being stretched and the whole nerves cramping and merging towards my heart.
“Please
don’t faint,” I murmured to myself as I sat down on the doorstep of my room and
the next thing I wake up to was my head throbbing with pain for putting the
dead weight on the doorstep.
In that
blackout moment, I remembering seeing my daughter and singing her favorite lullaby
‘rock a bye baby.’
The last
wish always comes true, I was told once. And as the whole world flashed before
my eyes, the only prayer or wish I left for my daughter was for her to have a
happy, healthy life and for her to NEVER FORGET ME!
